Bad momma!

Like most moms, I pride myself on trying to do what is best for my children and sacrificing everything I can for their better good.  Almost to a fault.  As a person that likes to learn from her mistakes, when Beaner was born, I decided I was going to do everything right that I did wrong with my other two.  Beaner was going to be cloth diapered, organically fed, carried in a carrier, breastfed until she no longer wanted and coslept.    That is where the bad momma part comes in.

Ok, enough small talk. The fact is...well, Beaner fell out of bed last night.  There it is.  I said it.  I was woken to a horrible cry that was simultaneous with my hubby jumping out of bed after he heard the thud.   I know what your thinking.  You've dropped, tripped over, yelled too loud or did some other bad momma move at some point.  You see Rooster and Peanut have both been dropped so I was determined not to drop the Beaner.  Remember I'm being perfect momma this time? 

This falling was followed by me staying up most of the night constantly making sure she was breathing and analyzing every groan that she made.  She is totally fine although I'm certain she will have nightmares of falling for a lifetime to come.  As for me, I waded in a bath of self pity all day over what a horrible mom I was only to decide I was a horrible mom for engaging in this selfish behavior with 3 little ones suffering my wrath.  I can't for the life of me figure out how it happened but I beat myself up all day long and have decided it is time to start fresh tomorrow.

I did put her crib together though...

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Murphy 30 day challenge update

At the beginning of the month, I told you that we were beginning a decluttering project in our house for 30 days.  Well with one week to go, I'm proud to say we've made some good progress.  We have filled and emptied the back of our Honda Pilot with donations twice and we are almost ready for a third trip tomorrow.  We have sold over $100 worth of items, mostly kids stuff.  We have three large boxes of shredding that I hope vaporize over night... and our house is a complete disaster right now!

When you start peeling away the layers in your house, you tend to make piles everywhere and it is easy to say "I'll take care of that later".  The psychology behind getting rid of stuff is really quite interesting.  Some people hold onto things because it makes them secure while others have a huge fear of losing the most important item in their life.  As we continue this process, I've constantly had to say "if it doesn't have a place and a purpose, it has to go"  Although our 30 days will conclude this Friday, we have a few more projects in store and plan to continue our challenge. 

I know.  I know what you are thinking.  Where are all the pictures?????  Well, my husband requested that I not photograph our horrendous mess in our bedroom or other areas and I respect this request.  However, I don't want to disappoint my readers so here's the deal. I have two major projects coming up and I promise to show before and after pictures once they are done.  The two areas will be our playroom/dining room and our walk in pantry.  So stay tuned in as the 30 day challenge continues and please share your pictures if you have decluttered any areas of your house.  It feels great doesn't it?